awaiting the sunshine

the big hands that push me down
crush me
until im as little as the gravel
under our feet
and the people
who walk across me
stomp
with their big heavy steal capped boots
until the cascading tears begin
but i cant walk like them
across the withered souls
because i do not
occupy heavy shoes
the shaking of my hand
i see the laughing in the corner of their eyes
staring me down
through the tree trunk
untill i can not be seen
ill try and blossom through the leaves
maybe even become a flower
but not today
i dont have the strength
i dont have the sun
or the rain
i need to drink
to grow
from this tree ive been forced into
tomorow i will probably have that power
i crave sleep to get to tomorow
but what if i wake up
and the sun is still hiding behind the clouds
the sun of my heart
the needed rain of my soul,
break the drought
i just need sleep
rolling dreams
to get closer to that new day
and we will see